Mental Health Update - July 2024

 

Here is an update on my mental health 1 (July 2024)

During the pndemic my mental health took a massive hit. My anxiety was through the roof.

I went to a big festival, first really big one since 2019. I managed it but had a lot of time either alone or with close friends at camp. I couldnt do more than 15 mins in a crowd without feeling overwelmed and having to escape them.

I avoided the enclosed areas of the festival where crowds were, didn't feel like I would be safe in them. In my mind, if I can't see a way out of a crowd then I don't want to be in it.

I was on antidepressents, but was not keeen on them, still am not. I am using a little cbd oil, but this is expensive, but it is helping.

Depression is still in my life, but i'm on the fringes of it, since I have started back at Radio Tircoed, I have focus on something I enjoy.

Tuesday 24th September: I'm having to ask my self has my mind been on tasks fully, and have to say, no it hasn't.

Dad isn't well, I know Fibro is becoming a pain for me.

I'm seriously thinking I have to rethink just what I am capable of doing, what is best for me and for others around me. Can I really give my all to what I am doing?

I am wondering if I can, and in all seriousness, I don't think I can.

Yesterday's massive Fibro attack made me realise I haven't got this in the least. I caved in, I went back under the duvet 😢

Today a call via WhatsApp cemented my thinking. I've been really trying but I've let people down. I've been diving my all as things have been getting worse. I could have swore I told people about issues 😭

Finding out this week my Dad has had bits found on his lungs, and the hospital is pushing for his appointments.

I myself need to manage the Fibro, got appointment with my GP later this week, and Fibro in Mid October.

I've been thinking and talking, will keep up with my show, do need some positivity in life. I will also keep up with my Islands FM show too.